Tomorrow is Noah's appointment it's almost here and I am anxious. I have been reading my devotionals and then sharing them with Noah in "kid" terms so he can understand. I write down notes with saying and scriptures and leave them in my car, on my desk, anywhere and everywhere. They help me to get through the rough days and through traffic too!

Noah didn't feel great this week and he had a pain in his neck. No it wasn't me! Even though he is tired of hearing "school work" and "homework". The pain is in the same spot as in the beginning and it scares me. Satan really knows how to hit those weak spots and boy has he lately. I kept repeating don't let fear in! I needed to go one more step and give it ALL to God.

Cast all your cares upon Him; for cares for you. 1 Peter 5:7

Can it be that simple? Yes, God makes it that simple for us. Trying to do things ALL by myself without God's help is one of my biggest obstacles. I need those daily reminders that He is our greatest supporter when is comes to fighting ALL (acute lymphoblastic leukemia)!

Storms are not an option but, fear is.

Where to begin.... We are now going to the hospital for Noah's check-up's every four weeks. Next Thursday will be our first four week visit and it seems that the "vacation from the hospital" (that is what Noah calls it) has been good for us in more than one way.

1. Noah's Spirit's are up!

2. Each day we are closer to the end of treatment.

3. We save on gas.

Noah is working very hard to finish up all of his school work so that he can go back to school. We both have mixed emotions about this although I don't share mine with him. He is nervous about seeing old friends and fitting in with new friends. My main concern is keeping him healthy but, friends are important too!

During this whole journey I have made a point not to show Noah when I am scared about all of this. One day when he was in a lot pain I asked him if he was scared. He said, "Never Mom, not once!". Right then I said to myself you need to make the same choice as Noah and not let fear in. Storms the challenges we face are not an option. We didn't have a choice in the matter when it came to Leukemia. But we do have a the choice to not allow fear in.

Matthew 14:27

Don't be afraid. Take courage. Iam here!